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02/26/2006: "first date"
Went on a date Saturday. She was very cool, and showed enormous compassion by dealing with me for a few hours, but on my part it was just fucking embarrassing. I got an email last night that read like a rejection letter: you're nice and sweet and intelligent, but . . .
How can I be a catch, when I can't find someone who's fishing for me?
Is it so hard to think that a woman would be interested in a thoughtful, dynamic individual who can justify his worth by something more than just pointing to his big-screen TV? Sure, all women say that they're interested in someone who's intelligent, but it seems that most have a compromised version in mind. I guess too much of anything is a curse . . .
I am living the eternal recurrence. "In the room the women come and go / Talking of Michelangelo."
An academic's life is lonely; and indeed, I'm gonna die alone.
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on Sunday, February 26th, Christie said:
My brother, you will be the last person I know that will die alone . . . you have many a safety net in place, and it is tightly woven with strong individuals who care a lot for you. However, you speak the truth. An academic's life is lonely, and misunderstood by most. You need a woman with gourmet taste. Equally as well, someone who can think outside the box.
Do not fret after one date with only one person. I have always believed that if it is something worth having, it is not going to be that easily attained. Of course, keep in mind the source this is coming from - the mind of your twisted sister! So, to put it more simply, we all have a skewed view of what we believe to be what we desire.
You are a unique individual, with exceptional intelligence. You live your life by your terms, and you don’t ever seem to be ashamed of it - except when a woman gets you down. I find that so interesting, because you speak at times as if woman is everything, when it can’t be. Obviously, living your life your way is what is most important to you. Be proud that you stand by your principles.
Don't beat yourself up because you believe there is no one fishing for you. There are fish looking for you - but they are not going to be the average everyday guppies you will most likely run into. You are going to either reel a lot in and set them free, or have to go deep sea fishing.
Be patient. The right one will come along when you are ready.
